when i'm sad

i've found the best place. emotionaly. . a lake. .
since i live near to it, i recently spending my time there thinking about lots of things.
just shut my phone off and seat there as long as i want.
my friend,naim, who introduced me to the place. he said that when he have something to talk with her gf, he'll come there. the best place on earth i could say.
it'll looks so moderate at daylight, and turn to be the best when night comes. the light, the swan. yeah,the swan. two couples of swan. the black and the white one. seeing the swan do knock me with the emotion. both are swimming and following each other. how i wish to be the swan at that time.
i have immoral lots of water lake and i confirm it was not just the rain. crying a lot there actually. haha. .
when i'm sad, i'll be there. .

hug n kisses!!

the light view from the building across the lake  :)

and this is my fat ugly feet!!



3.25am 28th february 2011
i should listen to my heart. since mine still stuck at the same place,it wont go anywhere-promise

if you understand

let say,your mom ask you to be a teacher. would you ask why?my mom always say that being a teacher will help you to understand people in and out.because you are like spending half of the day with the same person.the concept is regularly can be used in the family.but the feeling of being connected are more stronger and longlasting.i love my family.i have the best mom.a dad who understand.three sisters who love me so much.i would die if they were not around.i miss them so much right now.
my second sis,aza,got 3.2 in her stpm. i called her and she was so happy. i love her.
the third one always chat and giving me comments in my facebook wall. damn i miss her.
the last one keep texting me and asking me when will i go back and see her.and not forget to ask me to buy 7E slurpy drinks and waffle for her each time i go back. she's 14,but still looks like a baby to me.
having them is a bless.thank you god. .
i have my study to work on. i have another 1 year to complete it.pray for me peeps.
i'm going to turn to 23,and the age will keep moving.
thinking to take 'kursus kahwin' already.haha.jokes.
my married plan start only when i'm 26.it is just a plan.i'm not telling you that i'll be a wife already on that age.
it is just a plan.who knows what will happen.
my friend, amsyar, said ' u'll too busy to have a commitment when you are in the working mode '
and i'm agree.
i'm still a kid. crying so hard when he leave me.and i do everynite when i miss him.
still cant guess on what age i'll be stable delivering all the emotions. and i'll be ready when i do.
i'm not that kind of hu ha girl.dont have the character.
i'm not the one who like to do the funny face.sometimes i did.
i'm so damn nervous when i'm driving(manually)
i dont know how to do the cute voice.
i'm just a regular boring girl.
i'm a dove,easy to fall in love.but when i did,i just love you.the only one.
if you understand

hug n kisses!

its okey if u want to stop talking to me.i know im just a regular girl.

in my shoes

talking about shoes, i'm actually a shoe addictor!!
looking through the shop glass are so making me excitedly crazy. my shoes's size??
u can guess :)
but actually, this is not about shoes.
there's a friend of mine telling me that knowing people for years are better than knowing a person in a short time. badly,its so true!!
my friend,ieqa,have been in the relationship with her bf for 6 years. wht she have told me, 'we're like needing each other.no matter on what case.choosing clothes,menu,do a decision n etc. we do it together. he have become more open towards his true character,but then i can accept it.because its him '
love on the first sight. do u believe it? some people do. some people not. i believe it also. BUT, its okey if u just like the person. take time to know him/her. because if u are rushing, there is a bad things waiting. u should be in my shoes. then u'll know.
get it???oke. . .good. . .
since my last break up, and since we becomes friend. i know the pro and contrast. who he is. what he's favourite thing. what type of person he is.
so start ur relation with a friend's relation. .take time. .slowly. .it will give you the best benefit. .

hug n kisses!!

3.08am 24 february 2011
what are you??

complicated aim

Times go by.without noticing where we stand.girls turn to be women, guys being a man.everybody lift up life with a high aim in their head.
I have mine.hee!
So do you.
What do you want actually?could you tell? ? :)
Not everythg we can see and achieve,in a simple way ryte.but remember, hold it in your hand with no regret. .
Hug n kisses!

12.26am 21 feb 2011
I wont miss you again.

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listen is enough

phieuwww. .almost 10days i'm not updating anything in this blog.so busy with the test and work.but lots of things running in my mind recently.since the 1st story blog that i have write,its already 15days.being single actually.haha.damn it. .
in this partial of time,u will realize that you really need somebody to talk with.filling the time.syukur, i have friends,girlfriends and boyfriends.listen is enough.
texting and talking to them really help to enclose our relationship.
btw, i have two test tomorrow.sigh!haha. .what to do.student compulsory thingy ryte?
actually,before i'm busy with the work and class,i've join my friend to do some photoshoots.its really fun,seriously!!
thinking to do another photoshoot with my buddies this march.searching for white modern wedding dress.
with a creepy scenery,red cherry lipstick,very dark look eye shadow.cant wait!
i will update the pics here for you. no worries!!hee. .
see you at the next blog guys!hugs n kisses. .

freedom is about giving chances and choices

a nice evening chat with my leadership professor giving me a thousand of view. she said that freedom is about giving chances and choices(C&C). we need to fight for having the C&C to gain the freedom. while i'm given the freedom, so it's mean i have been given the C&C. it's my decision now to decide where and what i should put my life track on. either onwards or backwards. but hey, onwards of course guys!

life that we have left are should be left out. maybe as a references for us in the future. our relationship, our study, our social lifestyle which gives us a lot of positive and negative impact in our value of life. she also said that if we do not change, it means we do not learn at all. so learn from your mistakes guys, because it do help you to improve everything that you lack at. so good luck! ;)

3am 8th February 2011

u have start forgetting me love. so then i need to be strong. I.L.Y.

risk and selfishness

just now im having a late dinner with my housemate. we were both talking about our relationship. girls talk :P
it seems that we've been in the same situation. we share a little bit and make some wrap about what actually happen to us. we do have lots of common. a break up thingy! we both asked ourself what actually force our guy to make that kind of decision. selfishness. for us, it is so easy for them to say goodbye eventhough it is hard to say,but they did say it with no doubt at all. i believe that they were strong hearted but at the same time build up a kind of selfishness inside themselves. 'why now?' . thats the exact word that both of us have ask to our love one. and as hearing the answer, a thousand of cry came out .
i've left lots of things, my life. i can live without it as long he is around. texting and calling me is just enough. no need for a fancy dinner, a holiday vacation, an expensive present. im a simple person. i appreciate everythg that he did for me.
guys love freedom, his world and life, something that he work on that would be his first, and his family.
maybe one thing that they should know. everythg have their own risk. every decision including being in a relationship got their own thing that we need to deal with. so dont make the decision without thinking.

12.20am 7th february 2011
be what you are.prove everythg that you have said to me love. I.L.Y.